I've been musing lately over my relationship with Daniel. I've realized a lot. One thing, is he taught me blind trust. He caused me to believe in him and the things he said completely with NO second thoughts. That is a power full gift to have. Trusting someone completely. However, he also once again taught me a lesson I learned way back in the second grade, everyone hurts you no matter how much you think they won't. I know you guys are sitting there thinking yeah right... but even Cameron said it on Wednesday. We really can't depend on those around us forever, they come and they go. Friendship, "love" relationships, business relationships all fade and go away. Trusting people is and always will be dangerous. Never believe someone who you get a bad feeling about. This little tid-bit of fun is how my hopes got raised. I don't want to go into any of the major details but basically someone I didn't know very well and didn't really know what to think of told me a lie about something Daniel had said. Later I found out it wasn't true. Therefore hurting me more. Loving someone is the hardest thing to do. I know that sounds totally weird but it is the truth. I love Daniel. I really love him, not that bogus crap the world has come up with. And because of that I have found myself, though wanting to be with Daniel, preferring our break-up if it makes him happy. I always find myself thinking how much I want to be with him but how I would hate to have him if he didn't want to be there, and if he wasn't happy. "The one" is going to have a lot of work to do, only because I'm putting up a barrier around my heart. It still isn't in one piece, I'm still looking for them all.... and I don't want to go through this again. So when "Mr.right" comes knocking he better know he is the guy for me 100% because I'm not giving my heart away again like I did. I would like to note the awesomeness of this series and also make note of the fact that vampires in general are pretty darn nifty. | 
